So obviously I hardly get on my blog. Maybe I should do it more but I don't. I do tell my self its ok because I am busy. That's a good excuse right?
Here is a run down of the last year-ish. Ok so we started out like everyone else struggling but doing fine. Then ya I got pregnant with a COMPLETE bed rest pregnancy. This same pregnancy got me a 3 month stay in the hospital which ended in me getting gutted like a fish. Just after having baby #4. They (the doctors) shipped my little man to another hospital (Phoenix Children's Hospital) where he lived for about 8 weeks or so. No I did not hold him before he was shipped. I didn't see him again for a little over a week. While I tried to recover from Major surgery. When I did get to see him; he didn't feel like my baby. It was a very weird experience.
I took a REALLY long time to recover. When I was mostly recovered; my baby came home finally.
But he didn't come home alone. He came with feeding pumps and monitors and LOTS of equipment. He has chronic kidney failure and he hates all calories and flavor based foods and drinks. So he only drinks water and everything else goes through a tube. Through many surgeries, and ya I lost count on what number we are on for that, he is still a semi happy baby. He doesn't sleep well all the time in fact its a pretty recent thing to sleep through the night and still maybe nap in the day time. His naps are usually very short maybe an hour but most of the time only 10-20 minutes. He requires a lot of care.
So since I had so much free time (NOT) I am able to take care of my baby. Mean while I have 2 others in therapy and ya with the baby that makes 3 out of 4 kids in therapy. Not to mention doctors appointments and I am homeschooling the older boys (the reason is a whole new topic that would take me another 2 hours to write) and I am also going to school. Can life get crazier? yes it can we are currently a one car family because the motorcycle has been broken for a month and a half. On the bright side we are done having kids. Four is our lucky number with 3 boys and one pampered princess. Our family is complete. God loves me but sometimes I wish I knew what he was thinking when he dumps out my life's pieces and forgets that I can't see the whole picture. But my faith keeps me going. I know through my Savior Jesus Christ I can do anything.
